Strangers

Fighting the Egocentricism....

Self-discipline; by the seconds, minutes, hours, days/nights,
there is a schedule, a well-planned architextural,
Perfectionism, Perfectionist and Perfect scheme
by which, if you abide to, will give you satisfactory outcomes -

yes, only satisfactory.
Elite and Essentialism is another story, on another level.

I am lucky because I don't have anything else to do in life at the moment.

Because I haven't met the right people,
my time hasn't come, my chance hasn't come,
not yet, IT WILL HAPPEN & MUST HAPPEN,
but simply, not yet.

The Designation. You thought I'd forget.
To hell with your joke.... (this is a joke.)

Right now I'm 18 and I'm in uni and there's a lot of homework for tests.
That's all I know, for sure.

(except the Designation)

How far will we go to take and get the things we want
when we're not even sure of the thing's value?

Yea
A lot of time it's force and power that drives us to do things we do not want to
Haven't you thought about it?

Why do you do it?

Who is pushing you?
And who is intimidating you with potential punishment,
that you don't even know where it comes from?

If not Marxism, patriarchy, capitalism, hegemony, soverignity....

I'm glad i don't know more than these.
I wish to, but my time just hasn't arrived yet.

I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
And I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory


Oh I am what I am
I do what I want
But I can't hide


And I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me


And I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me

1. World City: few centers are in control of the globalizing economy.

2. Dual City: an (increasing) social polarization, gap between rich and poor, nations, powerful and powerless, ethnics, religions and gender.

3. Hybrid City: Unique in both material and cognitive life. Downfall of conventional communities and rise of new cultural categories, esp. cultural hybrids ie. American Chinese

4. Cybercity: Challenging the information age and the capacity of connectivity to compensate the constraints of space.

I want to be a futurist.

I find that some people study not for the money they will earn in their future jobs,

and some people study simply for the cash they will get.

There should be an absolute but i cannot argue the righteousness.

Taking away the Marxist views, i personally prefer the former but maybe one day i will regret.
Who forms the society anyway, in the end?

Finished sociology 105 lecture at 11am,

met up with a guy friend who slightly stupidly decided to also meet another girl apart from me at the same time at the same place. I walked over and asked that girl, a friend, "Are you waiting for X as well?" she said yes.

So the consequence is a one-hour long lunch sharing with many awkward silences.
But wer all friends.
After spending some time with X alone had to walk him all the way to the bus stop. The sky was cloudy already.

Then studied Geology about LA School urbanism on IC-L3, made notes, actually absorbed the information into my brain and body.
Then went to Renkon the jap cafe with C and her pet friend.

Then I'm back in here, IC-L3, waiting for a 5pm lecture
before I'd have to walk home in the rain. 10 min shouldn't be that bad.

Did not get letter from a838 today.