Strangers

Because of the colour tint of the window, it always looked like the sky is cloudy outside the computer room.

The lawful office sat solemnly across the street, with a highway of cars streaming down between them. People walk up and down the long, slopy road. It illuminated the corner of a garden city in london.

No, I am preparing for my exam. 

Early after i got dropped off and arrived at uni to study some film theory for the exam.

The computer science room is renowned for being closed down during exam breaks. But the light was on today and i went in as someone opened the door.  I was the only girl in there with all the other fifteen or twenties students being guys - for some reason, and mostly middle-eastern. I was like ok.

Then i went to the bathroom and came back, found that i was locked outside. Or rather my stuffs (bags and books and sht) were locked inside. Not wanting to waste time i smashed the door. Twice. The third time some of those laughing guys (not at me) opened the door and went out and i slid back in.

That sort of activitiy make people feel like they are discussing terrorist plans. Plus the A/C in the compsci room make the whole thing very airplane-like.

I think they were studying for exams, too. 

It's really about time i quit gaming.

Gaia is not addictive but simply too busy.  

Five days til my exam (just because it is so bloody close; Nov 1st, 2nd and 3rd) and i ain't even really starting to sweat yet. Not that i don't feel prepared, but something's wrong with the picture. Even kids who smoke are alarmed.

I think i gotta lie to myself that this exam prep content is interesting.

Man. This is teenage habituation?

Babies only "review" things if they are dehabituated. Not fair. 

Can high-culture and gangster culture coexist? I dunn, but that's what im looking for.

I don't think i can live in either for too long.

Just wondering about the future.

I like what i like.

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Going to play pool at Orange soon. 

I promised not to disturb him.

Maybe even my prescence has become a hazard now. I didn't realize the r'ship has been going downhills until like a minute ago. Maybe it's just me.

Federick came visit last night, but i still didn't sleep well due to the bloody allergy.

I'm suppose to go see the doctor today. Perhaps i will. 

Today is unbelievably cloudy. I'm not even sure if there is mist or fog like the one we woke up to in london. But everything seems to be back in place. A little. We will be going to uni later.

I don't know when i started using "we."

Didn't sleep well.

In fact i woke to the horror of myself. The allergy. It looks terrible. Massive spread of red bites across the body skin.

What was more terrible was that i woke chris.... that wasn't funny.

It was 3 a.m.

Grace called yesterday wanting to ask me out. I said i will be going back to the East tomorrow. She said ok. I like her a lot. She's a photographer i think.

Treasure the waking hours. 

Chris looks tired.

Hes not sleeping enuf.

i washed an apple for him this morning

hes been really good 

Grades aren't everything.

But you need to have other assets to say that 

i suddenly thought,

wat the hell, a taiwanese girl, brought to live in new zealand, went to London which became her dream city, and then met some more taiwanese friends in nz, and finally got attached to a chinese-nz-blooded boy. Wat a mixed up story.

i mean, forget gloablization, most people on earth still only have one nationality and on average two identities, right? i believe so. I dunno what i am. Taiwanese by blood suddenly don't sound that meaningful to one individual anymore.

Truth is, these are just surface labels.... 

Possibly nothing can sound dumber than this but separation is very good for the moment.

After twenty days i would have to move back home. Independence from my other half would train me to be back to a wonderful loner again. Single girl. My psychology studies (turning into psychiatric?) basically covers the emotional insurance of life. Living back at the parent's home will seem unneccesary since 1. Going to america on Nov 22 and 2. Moving out to an apartment next year. I look forward to that like a rabbit. Even if an albino one.

But what will happen to the r'ship will be interesting to observe and experience....

Positive enuf.