Strangers

I don't know when's the next time im gonna see you, but as you said, leave it to god to decide. Even if i see you after half a year i reckon that's enough to me. Seeing you once in a while is more than enough. Because you live in my mind.

Even if i can't reach to you for help at the most painful times, i can gradually endure through it because i know you care. I won't do the silly options again. My Brothr is in my heart....

I said, i don't wanna be greedy anymore.
I'm very scared, i dont wanna lose my Brother again....

 

The kindness was almost as exactly as in the dream i had the other night.

Dreams do become true; my birthday wish at the beginning of the year came true as well, didn't it?

 

Funny as soon as exams finish....

Sometimes im really happy. Even tho all this difficult shitty situations keep happening, all along i've also met some really important and life-changing people.

But at other times if i really put everything onto the screen or paper, it's quite hard to believe it's real life.

Like you said, it's just like a soap opera.... but i've never forgotten the fact that you told me to stay positive.

THat's the biggest thing i've learnt.

 

Most importantly....
I finally know it's not as bad as i thought.

I didn't lost my brother.... i didn't. Oh my god.  

 

I had a choice between bursting into tears or throw up. I chose neither. I smiled.