Strangers

You know, ordering songs like this, it's like trying to fit the whole life of this year into one cd disk.

It sounds ridiculous, but its jus unbelievable how music works on us.

I can't help but think about it....

 

You said, this year has just been like a tv story. I can't deny. It's magic, even if it's cursed. 

I hated myself, regretting forever that i didn't go to the tansa bbq that March. If i had, i would have met you.

But then, when we were together, it's as if we wished it would be all the better if we had never met. Yea, like some "fate" are cursed.

 

It doesn't matter now. All has happened. That's how im able to be writing now.

 

There are a few songs in this cd.... that i felt fits the story like as if they were written for them.

Coral Sea.. Only Want to Hold You.. Heaven.. & Long Long Ago.... 

 

Perhaps im over-reacting. Like i always do. But perhaps, you are the only one that can ever understand the mission of my life is to.. finish that novel.. maybe make that film.. and my life is completed. I don't remember if you had agreed at all, but it don't matter because i've said it to you, and you are what matters to me the most. 

 

Slap me.. Hit me.. Kick me out.. Break me.. i will say this with no shame....
"You are what matters to me the most."

 

In the past, now and forever. 

 

 

 

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Two posts a day, meaning there is more than importance. It's memorable.

Making that cd was hard.. i've been sitting here for over 2 hours, trying to get the "F.U." i dunno what that stands for, but it means some kind of intuitive feeling that guides you. All artists need it, let alone novelists. No, im not one yet. But i will be, i hope *smile* When i write the new chapter, perhaps i need to twist the ending a bit, because of you and chris. Please don't ask which is the dominant. There is none. But there is hierachy. I didn't lie to you in that email.

We grow, we all grow.... like trees.... like rivers.... whatever.

I'm happy now. I think you need to know that. I'm very happy (Especially after that saturday) Shh. No one needs to know. This is the biggest leap i've made since my teenage life. During college i learnt about the meaning of life. During univ (jus first year..) i learnt about love. Brotherly love, Romantic love and Family love. Love is present in too many forms.

Love can be like a tornado.... sigh, yet another song title.

 

Exams are over now. Are you looking forward to second year? Maybe a little afraid, maybe a little hopeful? That's how i feel anyway. Don't quite know what to expect, or how to act.  Just do my best, that's all i tell myself. Don't try to control the storyline of life. Life is a story. Stories are life-like. That's why we have emotions.

Ok, enuf bullshitting.. good shit, bad shit.... *sticks tongue out*

 

*Little Smile*